It's 11:30pm...

and I'm still up. I worked all day knowing that what I really needed to do was come home and write. I need to finish my short story for the Level Best contest, but tonight I ducked out of the work and indulged in a little research. I watched Julie & Julia. I know. I know. It's been out for awhile, but usually the choice of movies is not left up to me. This time I was the one possesion of the Redbox code.

I confess, I wasn't really sure what to think of the movie. I remember well seeing Julia Child cook on WPBN's Boston feed. This was back when we only got four channels. Three regular and the public broadcasting channel. I watched shows like This Old House (Norm's my hero) and Victory Garden and Julia. I've never been a cook. Never took the time to really learn, so the Julia experience was wasted on me growing up. I had a mother who was a Home Economics major in college, but she never really taught me to cook. Something she admitted to me as an adult.

But watching Julie and Julia did make me realize something tonight. I realized that if I possess I trait that will make me endure, if not succeed, in this life... then it's perseverance. I wrote for almost 12 years before selling. Most would have given it up long before that. I've written through the birth of my son, the death of my mother, the loss of jobs, the gain of jobs, the good times, the bad times and those times when I'm merely holding on by the edge of my fingernails. And through it all I just kept moving. Or writing.

In the movie, Julie states that she's not a writer because she hasn't published. It shouldn't have been the published status that determined her "writer" status, but her perseverance. To do something half-hearted is to offer a half-hearted gift. It was only when she persevered that she got her publication. And so much more. Perseverance is about staying with stuff, even when it so hard that all you want to do is something else. I've had people ask me if I ever wanted to give up. I can honestly say that I've never considered giving up. I can't. It's too much a part of who I am. Even if I never published again I would continue to write. It's as much an exercise in sanity as it is a lesson in perserverance.

Julia Child wrote, edited and cooked for years, working on determination and perseverance. I think tomorrow I'll be starting with a new determination. And possibly and new resolve. And we'll see where this leads me...

Bon Apettite'

Photo from TVGuide.com's bio of Julia Child

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