State of Mind... or is there a mind at all?

Okay... well, in a short amount of time (mainly about a week) I got the email from Tekno Books that they wanted to buy my Romantic Suspense Obsidian, I got the contracts in the mail and sent them back, and I got my advance check. What a whirlwind this has been. Oh, and I can't forget the lovely email I got from the editor working on my book, a publication date of January 2007, and a deadline for revision of June 5. Phew!

My other book, The Three Truths of Katie Talmadge which I actually sold first (last August) is due out in July 2007 through Wings ePress. This one felt like it was a long way off. With a July publication date I felt nowhere as scared as I do with the deadline for Obsidian. I'm so new to all of this. I have good friends who have published and I have quietly listened and questioned as they went through their own journey of discovery, but this... this is a whole NEW kettle of fish...

I'm not sure what it is that has me scared. I've been writing for 12 years and I've seen it all before through other writer's viewpoints. But somehow, signing on the dotted line made a difference. Not only did I finally feel justified for all the hard work (albeit intermitten work) that I put in over the years, but suddenly the responsibility of getting out there and writing more is increasingly intense. There is this little voice in my head that is saying... "okay, you did it twice, but can you pull it off again? And can you prove that you actually have more to say that people will want to hear?" I'm about ready to scream at that little voice.

Anyway, I hope to make this journey something that other writers can look at and say "you know, I know what that feels like..." and hopefully, someone can be helped by reading my idiotic ramblings of a newly contracted writer who just needs a little luck... to get through it all.

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